venting....skip

umm yea so a busy week is ahead of me soo much 2 do'' job interviews, trips,volleyball camp, math camp n all dis otha shit" but been tryin on let dis thing goin on wit this person not bother me" but 4 sum reason its been gettin 2 me wen i c certain stuff" lik dont lead me on 2 think sumthin dats not true" lik i try 2 c the gud n situtions but im startin 2 think i keep makin excusses 4 dis person n its lik mayb its time to just move on" but inside i cant lik" its lik y cant u just express ur emotions 2 me den i can do da same" lik man its sucks cus i no i have 2 do ma part 2 but its lik y cant u just take the lead n teach me since u wanna critisize so damn much" den i hear oh u da only 1 lik i no im not y u gotta lie'' or mayb its the truth but ma heart cant open up 2 dat realization cause its lik society has taught girls dat all these guys are dogs" i just wish 1 can prove that theory wrong 2 me but den dey expect sumthin 2 lik' i dont even no wat to think bout this situation ne more im so fed the fck up' ma eyes r even watering up righ now typin this cus ma emtions are so overwellming sumtimes. I can sit and think about things goin on n ma life and just cry 2 feel betta but he will neva know that cus he doesnt try 2 no lik idc nemore but i do'' its lik u say that just to convince urself u dont care sumtimes but the thought just seems to keep cuming bac' and i have no1 2 tell this 2' but if i did there wouldnt b nuthin to tell cus the problem is havin sum1 2 tell this to" i feel only i understand me righ now; its lik i need that other half righ now but i havent found him yet' n im tryin 2 make sum1 that may not b and prop doesnt wat 2 b it so i just gotta let it b cus it gets to the point of how long can u discuss the same issue wit sum1 lik until they act on wats been said so im takin dat as a hint i guess: but i c no type of effort so its lik damn ok i c the real u" lik if dats how i feel ill let u b' so im gunna let god help me though this n ultimatley cum up wit a decision=] but truthfully i dont think i will eva 4get _ _ _ _ _ _..................